I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
Saw this on GA the other day
Lara Logan posted this excerpt from a larger piece about being awake....maybe some other folks fell the same way
To all my friends out there who know what’s really going on… To all my conspiracy theorist friends… Yes, sometimes it’s a curse and not always a blessing to be awake. Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey.
If you find yourself struggling as you try to process all this insanity, you are not alone. No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the GRIEF. Not only grieving the life and illusions you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a LIE. The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, principles you were taught- ALL LIES. Shattering illusions is RARELY an enjoyable experience. There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there.
With these newfound realizations, you then find yourself grieving all over again. Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”. Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too. Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by. Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.
Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see. Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh. Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone. There is no way to sugarcoat it- Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.
You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough. Some of you are struggling with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world.
Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire tribe standing with you. We may be separated by miles, but we are DEEPLY connected; in purpose and in spirit. Author unknown.
This almost made me cry. This pretty much right where I am.
I have been digging into the truth and have understood the dark power structures of this world for close to two decades, but right NOW it seems something is cracking inside me. Very, very strange.
Thank you for this awesome post.
I feel this too. Literally this weekend especially.. but even leading up to this moment now... I'm breaking. Trying to hold it together, but I can't say that I understand what is going on.