So grateful that I found this community which led me to finding God, because without that I dont know how I would have gotten through today.

First I found out my cat passed away, which already hurt...but then minutes after that, my grandfather ive taken care of for 12 years took his last breath and I lost him too. The only thing that kept me from shattering was knowing hes been suffering for a long time and now that suffering is over. I really wanted to numb the pain with a bottle - but i went to an AA meeting instead.

It still doesnt feel real. 😔

Edit - just want to add since several people have already said get another cat - we have other cats, 3 actually, and 1 is with me now (the brother of the one that passed actually) so getting another one isn't really what I need. But thank you for the suggestion.