What is this thread all about?
Just a place for general discussion. A place to unload whats on your mind and talk about anything - personal, health, help needed, achievements, daily highs and daily lows, theories, predictions and what have you.
Does not need to be Q related.
Hey guys 😁
Life has been looking up for me.
I wanna be a pro hacker but not for some fucking bank doing pen testing.... no I wanna change the world
So I'm gonna go military!!!!!!! I want to so bad
I have all the skills I need I'm an Eagle scout, my uncle has a crazy rank that will probably give me huge shoes to fill, and I can't fucken picture a version of my life that DOESN'T involve military service.
I almost hit 300 pounds when my HALF ASS DIET AND SHITTY EXCUSE FOR EXERCISE was interrupted by a two week vacation with my girlfriend's kids. I completely fucking snapped there in that moment. ALL THE FFFFUCK NO KICKED IN.
MEDICAL EMERGENCY. GIVING LIFE BACK TO GOD AND TURNING MY BODY OVER TO BE MANIPULATED AND CONTROLLED BY MY MIND AND NOT VICE VERSA.
AND BAM. I'm down more than 25 pounds. I'm dieting hard. I'm working hard as all fuck in the gym. I'm abstaining from sex, told the girlfriend that if she wants the D she got to marry me!!! She's trying to get me to bend. She trying to get me to eat more. She's trying to get me to do sex things. Just tonight she threatened to collect her things, leave and drive to her dad's more than an hour away if I went to the gym. I told her cool move your car and let me out. She refused. I wriggled my way out regardless much to her frustration. I ran over 6.5 miles in my hour, which is no particular accomishment as I ran like 7.6 yesterday. Although earlier I sweat through all my clothes just absolutely dripping wet doing tree work, and so I was already on shower 2 for the day. Her key argument was that she wants to go in the morning. In an epic test of her gangster I am going to actually wake her up in the morning on my Let's Go To The Gym shit, and I'll do another hour of cardio to drive the point home.
She's so mad I won't bend or break. I think she wants me to keep the dad bod so I don't risk evolving "past" her(ridiculous, I love her).
But I'm seeing the value in hardass work. I'm seeing the point of not pursuing God's joy the World's way. I'm seeing the importance that as iron sharpens iron so one man sharpens another, but Eve brought Adam down into sin.
I feel smarter. I feel stronger every day. I see my times go down, I'm fitting into shirts I never fit into before, shirts I bought thinking it's so expensive, maybe it fits but no I could not even physically get it on my body. I'm down two pants sizes. Things are really starting to get better.
She says she will never marry me. I say I will give her every opportunity to change her mind and that if our desired wedding date comes and we do not get married, oh well.
We have been intimate, for over 2 years. I'm an excellent lover as is she. But I am redevoting myself, fully, to God and his plan and his purpose. And everything is working out for me because of it.
Have you considered discussing with God whether you and she are equally yoked?
I have discontinued the sexual relationship. We are currently basically friends. Either she wakes up or we aren't getting married. We wanted to get married 12/22/2022 because of the cool date. Who knows if she will make it there?
I did double my cardio today. One hour elliptical in the morning, and one tonight. Small breakfast of half a bagel with a little jam spread, an egg and two pieces of bacon. A handful of cashews around noon. Salmon steamed on a bed of zucchini and onion with personally-sourced rosemary and lemonsage, lemon juice, Himalayan salt and black pepper on top, Brussels sprouts roasted in olive oil in another pan with lemon pepper, lemon juice, lemon peel, and kombucha to drink; a very healthy dinner.
Woman continues to express her frustrations with my utterly stonewalling her bullshit, texting me during church choir practice all kinds of awful things, she's not attracted to me, I rejected her too many times, she wanted to throw up when I was hugging her, bunch of trash I didn't even receive since the vibe was off and I'd turned my phone off. I went to her room when I got home (my room, I've taken the guest room and allowed her to sleep in my bed, parent's house) and lay next to her, gave her a gentle kiss on the cheek and told her she is ridiculous. She was sweet and kind. We expressed our annoyance that my parents could be heard loudly disagreeing about cleaning dishes(her and I had prepared dinner, expertly so) and even though we had said goodnight and I'd said I would go take care of the dishes so 'the children' would stop fighting... she got up out of bed and so lovingly came and helped me load the dishwasher.
As loudly as she protests my nuclear warfare of not giving her one inch of compromise and in fact suddenly completely turning to God denying her even sex, despite us both being grown adults over 30 with a romantic rap sheet apiece, I think my tactic is working on her.
She is seeing the progress I am making with my body, as I am down 25 pounds. She rebells oh so hard at it. Calling the amount of time I spend working out useless, accusing me of starving myself, saying the weight is going to come back, saying the machine I am using is useless, saying cardio is not that effective, saying too much cardio will kill me. I ignore it all and she accuses me of not listening to anyone but myself, I remind her of her role as a woman and point out many male peers I take advice from As Iron Sharpens Iron, which of course pisses her off. But I am winning.
"Discussing with God....?" Well sir. Out of curiosity, are you one of those Christians that believes you can in fact conversate with God as you can a person(Mysticism and incorrect), or are you being sarcastic? See, as a gnostic, this sounds very silly to me, as I know intimately the nature by which all things be. You can no more have a conversation with God than you can have a conversation with yellow.
I borrowed those from a couple Christian sources, but here’s a Poem I wrote on it.
Be Silent Be Still Be silent, be still and listen for his voice He speaks in many ways When we’re not making noise Perhaps through a dream Or a gesture or letter from a friend Maybe in our circumstance But we just can’t pretend Not to hear, listen dear You might feel it in a tug That pulls upon your heart In the dead of night When you’re alone in the dark When sleep won’t come And your mind won’t stop When he draws you to his word At the most random time When you feel like you’ve been given The biggest task on the block Or you might receive a warning Of a place you shouldn’t go Or something not to do He’s there in the still and quiet When you’re not making noise Will you sit still and listen Because you have the choice Are you wholly in his word Spending time upon your knees Cause that’s when you’ll realize That he’s in the in between He has a higher calling And he calls upon his own When things aren’t making sense And you’re on the longest trek He’s got the road mapped out And the way planned ahead So be silent and be still And listen for his voice jWinters
I am a woman first of all. My suggestion would be to take a break from her solely to pray and fast and ask the Lord for Wisdom, Discernment and Guidance and for a specific sign the no one else knows to make your decisions by.
James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
Discernment allows us to properly make decisions. It is closely related to wisdom.
Hebrews 4:12 “For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.”
2 Timothy 2:7 “Consider what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.”
James 3:17 “But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.”
Proverbs 17:27-28 “Whoever restrains his words has knowledge, and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding. Even a fool who keeps silent is considered wise, when he closes his lips he is deemed intelligent.”
Proverbs 3:7 “Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and turn away from evil.””
Proverbs 9:10 “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of he Holy One is insight.”
Why is discernment so important?
Discernment is more than just what you hear or see. It is given to us by the Holy Spirit. For example, the Bible itself is foolishness to those who are perishing, but it is spiritually discerned by believers due to the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
1 Corinthians 2:14 “The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit.”
Hebrews 5:14 “But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil.”
Proverbs 8:9 “To the discerning all of them are right; they are upright to those who have found knowledge.”
God speaks to us in many ways.
The Holy Ghost can communicate with you if you but seek this communication and are worthy to receive it. Revelation from the Holy Ghost is often described as a “still small voice” and most often comes as words you feel more than hear. How do we define the “still, small voice of God?” This particular phrase is reminiscent of the scene where the prophet Elijah said that God appeared to him not in the wind, earthquake or fire, but in a still small voice. (1 Kings 19:11-12) The adjectives can also mean a gentle whisper. The quiet whisper we receive will definitely reflect His personality and will be identifiable to us. This holy communion from Spirit to human spirit becomes the “candle of the Lord.” (Proverbs 20:27)
Many believe the Spirit-led life is full of heavenly fireworks-dramatic visions and revelations. God can absolutely work in this way. But many believe that such misconceptions have caused widespread confusion and mistrust. In dispelling these mistaken beliefs, there must be balance. God Himself is “light” (1 John 1:5) and we are His “children of light.” (Ephesians 5:8) Paul teaches us that we are “saints in light.” (Col. 1:12) We should not discard the supernatural manifestations of the Holy Spirit because of satanic counterfeits.
The presence of God speaking in our lives, or the “still, small voice,” is God’s most frequently utilized method of revealing His plans and purposes to us. When we walk in spiritual maturity in intimacy with our Creator, He will reveal the reality of His kingdom to us and through us. Let’s examine some of the Divine encounters recorded in Scripture. God spoke to and through His people in countless ways. Because we are His children, we are no different from these biblical heroes. We should live every day believing that God could act in our daily existence no differently than He would in their experiences. Even great men of faith like Moses and Gideon struggled with insecurity and wondered how God could use someone like them. Occasionally our Father may knock us down to the ground like Saul or show us a burning bush like Moses. (Exodus 3:3) However, one thing is sure. God promises to be found by those who seek Him. (Jeremiah 29:13)
Let’s explore the biblical accounts of men and women who heard God speak: a supernatural manifestation accompanied by God’s voice, a Divine messenger or angel, visions and dreams, an audible voice, a human voice or the “still small voice” of God’s Holy Spirit to the human spirit.
The first is the miraculous manifestation of the Divine accompanied by His Word. When God’s fiery blaze burned up Abraham’s sacrifice and Jehovah pledged to the patriarch to bless him and multiply his seed, we see the miraculous demonstration of God’s fire in conjunction with His Word of promise. (Genesis 15:7-8) Moses’ flaming bush that would not be consumed (Exodus 3:3-6), Ezekiel’s mesmerizing wheels in the sky (Ezekiel 1-2) and the opening of the sky at Christ’s baptism (Matthew 3:17) are all such instances of the numinous combined with God’s spoken Word.
God often spoke through angels in Scripture. An angel is simply a heavenly messenger on a mission from the Lord to deliver His Word. These divine messengers do not always reveal who they are-some are called the “angel of the Lord.” The divine messengers at the trees of Mamre (Genesis 18) and the emissaries who warned Lot (Genesis 19) are Old Testament examples of angels who spoke blessings and warned of impending judgment. God’s messages through angels are so numerous, that I can simply list a few: Balaam, Gideon, Samson’s parents, Daniel, Joseph, the father of Jesus, Zacharias, the father of John the Baptist, Mary, the women who came to Jesus’ tomb on resurrection morning, Peter and Paul.
Dreams and visions were also the means that God used to speak to His children. They were given to people while awake or asleep and occasionally occurred with a trance-like state. The dreams God gave to Bible characters often needed to be explained by another. Gustave Oehler writes that “…the principle that a clear consciousness when receiving revelation is placed higher than ecstasy or other abnormal states of mind.” This is an essential precept to consider when we evaluate our own experiences with God and His speaking to us.
God, in the historical accounts in Scripture, has also spoken through an audible voice. When Father Abraham raised the knife to kill Isaac, God intervened by speaking to him directly. (Genesis 22:11-12; 15-18) The clearest, simplest picture of God speaking in a voice that could be heard is the story of little Samuel. The little boy was sleeping quietly in the Temple when God spoke to him. In 1 Samuel 3:9-10, the priest Eli instructed his young assistant to respond to Jehovah with the words, “Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.” Young Samuel began a remarkable career as a prophet because of his ability to hear and respond to God’s voice.
The human voice is obviously one of God’s primary means of speaking to us. God speaks through human beings. The Lord and the person He chooses to use speak “conjointly.” We can say that God speaks through us as long as this is not understood as automatically ruling out our speaking with God and even through God.