I spent a good part of my 40 years in churches. I was brought up in extremely strict doctrines at first, bible holiness denomination. Then my parents saw it as too radical and tried to get a feel for other denominations. I saw denominations who "spoke in tongues", Pentecostals, and denominations who were "holy" only in title. In the end, none of it saved a broken home and that ended in divorce and I was tossed to the world. I observed and questioned during all of this, often being ridiculed for it. Some questions were very basic such as why do we fear physical fire in the ethereal realm? Other questions I developed as I grasped for further understanding. Why do so many religions have a similar flood tale? How can there be so many religions yet only one of them be the right one? Goes double for denominations... it was then I started to understand religion being weaponized. This couldn't be the answer to everything. It must go deeper. I alienated more family and friends as I finally openly left my current church of 12 years as it no longer seemed right and correct to me. I hold a high standard. I instead devoted myself to studies where my orevious limitations would not allow my mind to dwell out of fear. Fear is such a silly thing. Fear can save your life but it can also stunt your growth and keep you in a box. I have been developing understanding on my own, free of fanatical influence, a philosophical gray man to society. My findings, relative to the questions that intrigue me, thus far are this: We know nothing. We are allowed to know nothing. Our society is not the greatest that ever was. The things we are taught regarding man's origin are incorrect by both religious doctrine and government sponsored institutions. Man has been around for far longer than credited by either establishment. My readings and research eventually led to me travelling and standing upon the ground of Serpent's Mound in Peebles, Ohio. Many will scream "Oh Lawd it's Satan!", without having the wherewithall to look deeper. To understand it is a message from those who observed the serpents of the sky until their fury fell to earth and reareanged it cataclysmically to the lands we now know and take for granted. I have to say Graham Hancock has been one of my favorite authors in this realm and I highly recommend Magicians of the Gods to any readers still following along. My research has also led to an understanding that we are energetic beings and so much of that is ignored in modern medicine, even by many of those who think they are in the know on the big pharma fallacies. I developed an understanding of transmutation of energy/ manifestation, often brought about in the form or repetitious spoken affirmations(look at you, prayer) that people don't even realize they partake in. Yes, I've even read the Kybalion though I would not consider myself a master of the 7 principles as my situation, while improved, hasn't improved all that much. I'm not even sure what I'm getting at.
I guess I was building a backstory so that my question would seem genuine. Many will attempt to call me back into the service of their lord after reading this. I implore them to expend their energy somewhere that will net them a result. I cannot put my mind back in a box. However, I do not consider myself above others... higher conscious awareness than some maybe but I dont see myself as special. I find myself on the Trump train not because I think Christian based policy is the end-all cure but because many of his policies and viewpoints directly agree with me and my life and have a direct impact and I see potential for the greater good. I see a balance in all things. Hot and cold are measureabke by degree but a glowing ember will burn you. This is known. Just like good and evil but then something like cold blooded murder... the obvious glowing ember. Anyway, if you're still with me after all that... does it seem like I'm on the right track? Suggestions on where one like myself might benefit from focus?
I spent a good part of my 40 years in churches. I was brought up in extremely strict doctrines at first, bible holiness denomination. Then my parents saw it as too radical and tried to get a feel for other denominations. I saw denominations who "spoke in tongues", Pentecostals, and denominations who were "holy" only in title. In the end, none of it saved a broken home and that ended in divorce and I was tossed to the world. I observed and questioned during all of this, often being ridiculed for it. Some questions were very basic such as why do we fear physical fire in the ethereal realm? Other questions I developed as I grasped for further understanding. Why do so many religions have a similar flood tale? How can there be so many religions yet only one of them be the right one? Goes double for denominations... it was then I started to understand religion being weaponized. This couldn't be the answer to everything. It must go deeper. I alienated more family and friends as I finally openly left my current church of 12 years as it no longer seemed right and correct to me. I hold a high standard. I instead devoted myself to studies where my orevious limitations would not allow my mind to dwell out of fear. Fear is such a silly thing. Fear can save your life but it can also stunt your growth and keep you in a box. I have been developing understanding on my own, free of fanatical influence, a philosophical gray man to society. My findings, relative to the questions that intrigue me, thus far are this: We know nothing. We are allowed to know nothing. Our society is not the greatest that ever was. The things we are taught regarding man's origin are incorrect by both religious doctrine and government sponsored institutions. Man has been around for far longer than credited by either establishment. My readings and research eventually led to me travelling and standing upon the ground of Serpent's Mound in Peebles, Ohio. Many will scream "Oh Lawd it's Satan!", without having the wherewithall to look deeper. To understand it is a message from those who observed the serpents of the sky until their fury fell to earth and reareanged it cataclysmically to the lands we now know and take for granted. I have to say Graham Hancock has been one of my favorite authors in this realm and I highly recommend Magicians of the Gods to any readers still following along. My research has also led to an understanding that we are energetic beings and so much of that is ignored in modern medicine, even by many of those who think they are in the know on the big pharma fallacies. I developed an understanding of transmutation of energy/ manifestation, often brought about in the form or repetitious spoken affirmations(look at you, prayer) that people don't even realize they partake in. Yes, I've even read the Kybalion though I would not consider myself a master of the 7 principles as my situation, while improved, hasn't improved all that much. I'm not even sure what I'm getting at. I guess I was building a backstory so that my question would seem genuine. Many will attempt to call me back into the service of their lord after reading this. I implore them to expend their energy somewhere that will net them a result. I cannot put my mind back in a box. However, I do not consider myself above others... higher conscious awareness than some maybe but I dont see myself as special. I find myself on the Trump train not because I think Christian based policy is the end-all cure but because many of his policies and viewpoints directly agree with me and my life and have a direct impact and I see potential for the greater good. I see a balance in all things. Hot and cold are measureabke by degree but a glowing ember will burn you. This is known. Just like good and evil but then something like cold blooded murder... the obvious glowing ember. Anyway, if you're still with me after all that... does it seem like I'm on the right track? Suggestions on where one like myself might benefit from focus?