If you told me before 2014 that feminists would wreck my views on equality, be ostrasized by race in 2016 and by 2022 find a path towards Jesus through some "nutball" community deciphering hidden messages in our news, I would have told you you lost your mind, and probably avoid all of that being aware of what was once told to me.
But that is what happened to me. And I am looking back at everything and noticed a lot of small questions or moments brought me ever so closer to where I am now. And honestly, most of it has happened here, on GAW.
I originally thought you guys had some crazy notions, long before .win communities were a thing, then I came to realization that Trump looked... Accurate to previous "drops" you all called them. I eventually found out truths of Trump's actions and eventually moved from independent liberal to a conservative, cause I hate any abuse to children. He was protecting them hand over fist. Eventually TDW was struck down and heard GAW knew this was coming. The more I orbited you guys directly, the more I became open to what is truly happening. And I did something I never thought I'd do; review my lack of relationship with God. I started going outside at night and just, talked to the sky? I didnt know if anyone would hear it, eventually I started becoming more and more of a believer, was being shown things about the evil in this world. What it wants, what it has, just tastes. Now, I am by no means some "born-again" type, but I am working that relationship more each day, trying to kill bad habbits and replace them with more constructive ones.
Before I just kept going home, and mindlessly playing video games and lament on the lost opportunities I had when I was a college kid. In a year's time I have turned it into a gaming themed podcast with a friend and further still learned a new craft of making wing sauces and glazes. Before every recording, before every sauce cooked, I have now had a habbit of praying and thanking Jesus for the small amount of time given to give me solace and move my newfound gifts forward.
I won't be advertising any of my stuff, thats not what this is for. But today marked some small milestones for me. The FDA is ready (cause our jacked state requires it) to review my kitchen for a professional sale of my sauces and my podcast channel is seeing an oddly larger uptick (by no means its huge). Two victories that would have never been seen if I just stuck to the TV and beat my next major RPG or some crap.
And honestly, I dont think much of my personal life changed for the better during this time. But my perspectives and beliefs have, my stances have. And it's more because this community is making me see stuff in me and my world I would have never thought before. And we are truly the grassroots of this awakening process. And my works will indeed reflect this.
And to you all; Thank you guys for giving me the proper seeds to grow. I will continue to do what I can to better this country.
"if the only prayer you say in your life is THANK YOU, that would be enough." quote by Meister Eckhart...pray it often, and it will be enough...also, i like to add "Thank You, Jesus"...blessings, friend, for finding your path forward...
That's good advice, honestly. Though admittedly my first prayers was essentially admitting I wasn't much in deserving of such guidance, just point a way for me and I will go.
After a couple weeks, a friend moved out on his own and had a good space to record a podcast that was his dream. I pulled the trigger for him and we got started the next week. And ever since it grew slowly and I am grateful for that. And looking back I see the how God led me. And it sort of... Blows my mind how quickly my life and his shifted from that. And again for myself when we moved into a true home and space for a better quality recording and eventually a kitchen space to work sauce recipes.