Y'all remember our super-mod, u/Evspra? Got this modmail from him tonight, and, uh, I feel concerned for this angry kid. I dunno what mental space he's in, but, do you ever look at GAW's amazing site design and think how awesome it is? It was all him! He did so much for us! Poor kid...
(media.greatawakening.win)
LET'S GOOoOoooo!!!
I can relate to that feeling. There are some books you might like: notably, The Drama of the Lost Disciples by George F. Jowett. This one gets into the Joseph of Arimathea nitty-gritty. In his time, he was the richest man in Israel and England and possibly the world, it is said. He dealt in tin. And he was Jesus's uncle. Super interesting book.
Lighter fare: the novel, The Thorn of Arimathea by Frank G. Slaughter. It's a 1950s novel. I love some of those old historical fiction novels.
Also, if you haven't read Dolores Cannon's books Jesus and the Essenes and They Walked With Jesus, they really are amazing. I only read them last Spring and they have left a huge impression on me. And you saying that you at one time "followed Him in secret"--these two books would be right up your alley, I suspect. Cheers, fren! Nice to meet a fellow Joseph of Arimathea enthusiast.