Wow. Glad you aren't dead. And I'm really sad they damaged your trust. I hope you can observe like I can, that there is way more people that can be trusted than not. Don't let those fuckers steal your willingness to go for the best this planet has to offer. The relationships we get to have with people we trust is worth the pains I have experienced. Which admittedly isn't any terrible story, but still. I do hope you have plenty of trust and love with people that cherish your life.