I have a similar story with anxiety/panic disorder. Unfortunately I never had any mystical experiences during my time in that particular Hell lol. I am recovered from it though. I whole heartily recommend a book (and app) called DARE by Barry McDunnogue (I might have the spelling wrong there but easy book to find). It’s a very simple process that teaches you “the right way” to have/respond to anxiety, which gradually eliminates it. In a nutshell it retrains your brain to think “Anxiety? Who cares?”, which deprives the anxiety itself of the fuel it needs (your resistance to it) to perpetuate itself. Really brilliant approach and it really works. Just thought I’d mention it, as I know very well how terrible chronic anxiety can be.
I have a similar story with anxiety/panic disorder. Unfortunately I never had any mystical experiences during my time in that particular Hell lol. I am recovered from it though. I whole heartily recommend a book (and app) called DARE by Barry McDunnogue (I might have the spelling wrong there but easy book to find). It’s a very simple process that teaches you “the right way” to have/respond to anxiety, which gradually eliminates it. In a nutshell it retrains your brain to think “Anxiety? Who cares?”, which deprives the anxiety itself of the fuel it needs (your resistance to it) to perpetuate itself. Really brilliant approach and it really works. Just thought I’d mention it, as I know very well how terrible chronic anxiety can be.