Today, two of us went out to walk by the beach in Massachusetts State Park. (Google Maps Satellite) The river (actually a giant lake) is ~750 ft wide and very deep. There's a Boat Club with several ramps. It is a beautiful serene place.
We noticed we were the only two people in the park. As we approached the beach, we nearly collided with a man (Hispanic / Middle-Eastern, 20-30 years old) swiftly walking behind us. It appeared that he was late for a meeting. The man was wearing a thick black winter coat (backwards), big boots and heavy backpack.
The man ran onto a narrow boat ramp. I thought: "What is he doing? Waiting for a boat?" The man was ~140ft away from us. He was pacing back and forth on the ramp. Suddenly, he stopped, turned and fell backwards into the river. He wailed one last time. Then his head submerged into the deep water below.
Guy from the Boat Club ran onto the ramp. He looked down into the river and yelled: "Motherf--ker!" He quickly ran back into the Club shouting to his fellow employee: "Call 911!"
Within ~10 minutes, an armada of police and EMT arrived on the scene. We counted 50+ officers and emergency personnel, two divers, three ambulances and two fire trucks. It took them almost an hour to locate the guy's lifeless body in the deep waters and bring it onshore.
I felt completely numb. I have watched many gruesome videos on LiveLeak (people getting electrocuted, shot, fall from roof, run over by cars, airplanes crashing and burning, etc). In those instances, innocent people died by accident.
But I hate people who kill themselves. This guy was in his prime. Yet he was a coward. He could not deal with his problems, so he decided to "unplug" himself. Now his parents, siblings, girlfriend will be suffering. What a waste.
Let me remind you: You are not alone. Everyone has dark thoughts. This is Satan whispering into your ear. Pray to God. Don't give up. Never give up. If you have bad feelings, reach out and let someone help you. Don't be a coward. Do not commit suicide. May God bless you.
Kinda bothers me when someone criticizes someone for committing suicide and calls them a coward. For one it's just not a good word to use. Ending ones life and risking eternity in Hell or purgatory or as a ghost- I can't call people that do this cowards. Sure they ran away from whatever in life became too intense to handle but we have no idea what exactly they felt like inside or what it's like inside that person's mind.
I once heard someone describe their mental issues in a really good way, saying that living inside their own mind was like living in a very dangerous neighborhood. For some people, it's harder than we can imagine.
Yep. The judgement is unreasonable, and reactions usually just as or more selfish than they claim the act itself to be, as if the person were property to be held caged for the emotional and moral satisfaction of others' egos.
Yes, that's a whole 'nother part of it I've always completely agreed with it. They call the person selfish but really they're the ones pretty much saying that they want the person to continue enduring whatever soul crushing feelings they're dealing with for a full lifetime just so that they (the accuser of selfishness) don't have to lose someone.