Aww your much to hard on yourself fren. However I completely understand..I'm not here to try and pressure u. It's more a show about testimony rather then debating the bible. So no one can really say anything about it because it's your journey. I will ask u to pray on it. See if God is guiding u to maybe step out of your comfort zone. Those are always the best experiences once u get past the negative feeling. If I'm being honest I still get nervous about each episode myself. God just guided me to start it so I did. No pressure like I said. Either way I will be praying for ur content. God bless