Go to an established forum , choose one where you can have some control, and start a group called Redpilled Ladies. After a few join go from there. That's where you can ask about woke brands ect. You sound like me now. I think we need a safe place to go every now and then where we can stop searching , guessing, or hoping for action. Let go and let God. Keep on living your life in the now. I've gone back to my favorite thing to do, reading and using my creative side.