I only know I wasn't a sheep in retrospect, and now I can't remember being anything other than an independent thinker. For example, a few otherwise nice kids in Jr. High caved to some mean girl pressure to ostracize the new 6th grader, and they tried me to get me to go along. When I told them no way, they tried to ostracize me, but for some reason I just didn't care. They got bored with it and apologized. I remember watching the black and white video of young women screaming and crying about the Beatles and thinking, "Something is very wrong with this it's like they are brainwashed." Screaming and chanting at concerts in general is so embarrassing to me. I have never been able to buy the "it" thing, even back in day it was a "Members Only" jacket. Sometimes even when a product is arguably objectively superior, if it has a lemming following, I have an aversion to it automatically. The sorority thing in college was so bizarre to me. I could go on and on. I think it's born not made tbh.