I’ve spent a great deal of my life having suicidal ideations, and feeling very depressed and down. I’ve been clinically diagnosed with depression, and many other maladies.
BUT GOD
Even as a Christian, I’ve struggled with many of these things, But God. Over the last year, I have overcome so many hurdles regarding how to approach life, and how to live in the moment, and be happy, or have the joy of the Lord, to be more precise.
I highly recommend that you join a nondenominational Bible, believing church. Something like a Calvary Chapel, where they study the Bible, chapter by chapter and verse by verse. Also, read one proverb, and one psalm each day. With minimal effort, you can accomplish this, and you will begin to hear God’s voice speak to you.
Once you do that, join a men’s, or women’s Bible study based on your gender. This is where you will find the support and prayers of other believers, and they will help build you up. Also by studying the Bible every week within a group setting, you will begin to see the Lord speak to you and show you things about your life, your personality, and how God wants you to grow in his love.
Once you start feeling better about yourself and life in general, you will start to reach out to others and begin volunteering at perhaps a harvest festival or just go to the lake with the group of Christian friends from the church, etc…
Also, I suggest doing all these things as a family. If you’re married, make sure that your wife is going to church with you and she’s in a Bible study as well. If you’re single, then meet other single friends, and enjoy each other’s company, and learning about the Lord.
Also, if you’re suffering from severe depression, which it sounds like you are, I highly recommend ketamine infusions for treatment, resistant depression. This has been a complete lifesaver for me. I’ve been doing it for three years now, but since I’m now in alignment with God, and what he wants from my life, the ketamine is working now better than ever.
I can actually say at the age of 59, finally… Finally, I have found some joy in my life. I can complete regular tasks, which I was unable to do prior to all of this. I make tie-dye shirts, and I put scriptures on them, and I give them to people as gifts. I’m just finding my Nich in this world now.
I am truly sorry that you’re going through these types of emotions and feelings. It is truly a struggle, and I feel for you. I will be praying for you. I don’t have all the answers. I’m not Jesus’s lawyer, I’m only his witness. I can only tell you what he’s done in my life, and it’s been miraculous.
““The Lord bless you and keep you; The Lord make His face shine upon you, And be gracious to you; The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, And give you peace.” ’”
Numbers 6:24-26 NKJV
I’ve spent a great deal of my life having suicidal ideations, and feeling very depressed and down. I’ve been clinically diagnosed with depression, and many other maladies.
BUT GOD
Even as a Christian, I’ve struggled with many of these things, But God. Over the last year, I have overcome so many hurdles regarding how to approach life, and how to live in the moment, and be happy, or have the joy of the Lord, to be more precise.
I highly recommend that you join a nondenominational Bible, believing church. Something like a Calvary Chapel, where they study the Bible, chapter by chapter and verse by verse. Also, read one proverb, and one psalm each day. With minimal effort, you can accomplish this, and you will begin to hear God’s voice speak to you.
Once you do that, join a men’s, or women’s Bible study based on your gender. This is where you will find the support and prayers of other believers, and they will help build you up. Also by studying the Bible every week within a group setting, you will begin to see the Lord speak to you and show you things about your life, your personality, and how God wants you to grow in his love.
Once you start feeling better about yourself and life in general, you will start to reach out to others and begin volunteering at perhaps a harvest festival or just go to the lake with the group of Christian friends from the church, etc…
Also, I suggest doing all these things as a family. If you’re married, make sure that your wife is going to church with you and she’s in a Bible study as well. If you’re single, then meet other single friends, and enjoy each other’s company, and learning about the Lord.
Also, if you’re suffering from severe depression, which it sounds like you are, I highly recommend ketamine infusions for treatment, resistant depression. This has been a complete lifesaver for me. I’ve been doing it for three years now, but since I’m now in alignment with God, and what he wants from my life, the ketamine is working now better than ever.
I can actually say at the age of 59, finally… Finally, I have found some joy in my life. I can complete regular tasks, which I was unable to do prior to all of this. I make tie-dye shirts, and I put scriptures on them, and I give them to people as gifts. I’m just finding my Nich in this world now.
I am truly sorry that you’re going through these types of emotions and feelings. It is truly a struggle, and I feel for you. I will be praying for you. I don’t have all the answers. I’m not Jesus’s lawyer, I’m only his witness. I can only tell you what he’s done in my life, and it’s been miraculous.
““The Lord bless you and keep you; The Lord make His face shine upon you, And be gracious to you; The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, And give you peace.” ’” Numbers 6:24-26 NKJV
https://bible.com/bible/114/num.6.25-26.NKJV