I’ve been there fren, gotten myself into ugly legal trouble, bad relationships, and seen the other side of it; find a good wife, create a family, and still feel emptiness. The start for me was God, might not work for you but that was my entry point. But beyond that was understanding that life and emotions are as consistent as tides in the sea. They will flood in, sometimes they will fade out, but it will always come back, the good and the bad. The most important take away I’ve been trying to drive home for myself was that, high highs will go away so focus on the moment when you’re in it. Low lows suck as much as anything, but they will go away as well. It’s almost like wearing a rubber band on your wrist to snap your arm when you fall too deep in either feeling. Just a reminder that good times are fleeting but so are bad times, pull yourself outside of the situation and evaluate it like a spectator.

An amazing book I’ve read a few times is the Untethered Soul. It’s not preach, just provides a different perspective on how to view life. Might be helpful, might not, but it’s something to kill time if for nothing else. I’d say I’ll be praying for you, but I’d be a hypocrite, I barely pray for myself. I’ll make an attempt.