If I lived in a different century I would have been a monk. I don't like life. Or rather, I don't like the kind of life I'm expected to have. Life itself is beautiful, but I hate that I have to experience it as a human being bogged down with all sorts of irrelevant responsibilities and obligations. It feels like 90% of life is just being distracted from the greater parts of existence.
I don't really care about being successful or advancing my ego. Life is too short and too temporary to get any satisfaction from that. What I want is to just be. Part of me feels attracted to death for that reason. "Duty is heavier than a mountain; death is lighter than a feather." It's something that crosses my mind a lot. Not out of depression or desperation, but out of a desire for peace.
I feel the presence of God in those quiet moments that could have been experienced in any time. Walking through a forest, watching the sunrise at the beach, gazing at the moon and stars. I just want to be at peace. I have a very good life and have been blessed with many things. But the only thing I really want is peace.
I just wish I could get away from socialists. They do not ever give up proselytizing their ridiculous ideas.
That's what exhausts me. They seem to think someone wanting "less" is in need of their unwanted help.
Slowly, surely, the longer you are around them, they chip away at the belief that you could escape them.
There is only one way of living life in their eyes, and anything that isn't benefitting them is not allowable.
I've never actually met one lol.
I shut off my phone it's like they don't exist.
It's pretty great.
That sounds amazing.
They're like spiders with sticky webs. Their words are treachery drenched with poison. Industrial-grade gaslighters.