Booberry, I am so sorry. Though I am glad to hear you are leaning on the Lord. Please focus on the happiness your husband is experiencing in heaven, with Jesus. And remind yourself that you will see him again, it's only a matter of time. For some reason, God wanted him now, and you must still have work to do here. Just keep thinking of how much peace your hubby is experiencing and be genuinely happy for him.

You took the hit. It could have been the other way around, and he would be mourning you. But your love was so strong, you let him go first and you're the one to suffer the loss. It won't last forever. You'll be with them both. I'll be praying for you. Blessings.