From the earliest moments I was aggressively socialized to accommodate others and never take my own side. Now as a man I'm supposed to go out there and succeed in this highly competitive world? It's a cruel joke.
I developed earlier than most kids. By the time I was 2 years old I was already talking more like an adult and learning to read my first words. The teachers didn't understand this and resented me for not acting my age. I was always bored in school and hated the way I was treated for doing anything that felt remotely natural. No stretching, no talking, no exercising my own discretion or being creative. I thought it was ridiculous that I had to ask to use the restroom or drink water. I was always getting in trouble for things that no adult would ever think twice about criticizing another adult for.
Going to public school is like being raised in a communist country. Teachers use their age difference and institutional backing to bully kids into non-existence. They obviously resented us. They didn't want to be there. We were always the problem for them just by existing and they wanted to mold us to be as small as possible so they didn't have to "deal" with us as human beings.
What does that do to a person's mind?
Virtually all of the traits I hate about myself can be traced back to school. The people-pleasing, the passivity, the fear of not being in control of my environment. I often hesitate to take initiative or advocate for myself because every time I did that as a child I was squashed by people bigger and more respected than me. Eventually I learned not to trust myself. I learned that the only way to survive is to mindlessly fall in line and follow directions. It's been a very hard thing to unlearn.
I think a lot of the woke stuff we see is actually a backlash to this. Schools were so overbearing in the 2010s, the people coming out of that environment just want to assert some form of identity for themselves. Sometimes that shows up in the form identifying as a cat or having crazy colored hair. It's sad that so many young minds have been ruined by modern schools.
Sorry you went through that. Elementary school nurse here. Got to see many teachers in action. Most were as you described, but a few really tried. I agree with what Lawjic said, public schools generally aren't equipped. I got to help one truly gifted child.
They labeled him autistic with oppositional defiance tendencies because he wouldn't/ couldn't sit still, focus, or complete his work. They placed him in a special needs class with others who truly could not learn. He came to my clinic a lot. Several times a day, every day. The teacher realized very quickly that I could get him to do anything, she could get him to do almost nothing.
So for almost the entire school year, his desk was in my clinic and I was his teacher. He was in 3rd grade and bored stiff. I made him a deal, we zipped through his assignments and I taught him how to run the clinic, notes, supplies, and the computer. We talked about just about everything. We researched and spoke about as much as possible on many different subjects and he loved it and truly thrived. I tried convincing his parents to get him tutors or home schooling him to no avail.
He moved the next year, I asked the nurse at his new school how he was doing. He was back in a special needs class. It nearly broke my heart. I still think about how much smarter he was than most of the teachers and probably even me truth be told. He genius was being stiffled and there was nothing I could do about it.
You and I are definitely playing on the same team but in two different fields.