I dont even know what to say but... I need them prayers. I need strength I need endurance i need remembering what happy actually is
im in a dead end job and my phone fell in water tonight at that bs job - i cant even afford to replace it with a weeks paycheck thats how shitty this job is. So...
im really kinda at wits end
and thats without ... all of this
all the thinking of how close to the edge of the cliff we are with all the trump/q stuff. Im just at wits end and trying to keep myself a good hamster on the wheel for my own survival but ugh im so close to just saying screw it n giving up. Im tired to watching this movie, im tired of the shit life always throws at me, im just tired. i dont care anymore right now call it a blackpill but i really wiish i could doze off tonight and thats a wrap for my story because..... i dont have it left in me to wait for whatever fireworks we've been promised at the end. i just dont care. pedos are still out there ruining countless kids lives, politics is still corrupt as can be, good people still rot in jail while evil people dont. im just fucking done so i really need a prayer cause I aint tryna leave yet but its tempting
I am praying for you. Try to get some rest. And remember that the enemy loves to kick us when we are down. But Father God is holding you tight right now, even tho it feels like He is a million miles away. He has you. Go to Him in your weakness, and He will carry you and strengthen you. Been there so many times, always good to ask for prayers when we are struggling, it's amazing how powerful the prayers are from our friends and family.
Im actually gonna counter that first part you said because as frustrated as I was when I wrote this - others before you have came to this post and calmed me down. right now.... my counter is
No, this isnt the enemy kicking me when im down,. its my team-mate knowing there is something better out there for me just begging for me to say ITS TIME TO FIND SOMETHING BETTER
life will teach you lessons in mysterious ways. God is a comedian and he's his only audience. sometimes we dont get the joke we just gotta have faith in the punchline
Gotcha! Thanks for explaining, I misread your request.
I hear you about your last line! Well said.
As for finding a new job, depends on the area of course, but it's often easier to get a new job while you still have a job. And so you don't get discouraged when you don't hear back, some companies post jobs that they have no intention of filling. So hang in there.
And still praying for you!