Please pray. Please, please pray. For my mental and emotional health. She just very quickly emptied out everything from the closet. My heart is just ... crushed.
Sorry I keep posting about all this stuff on here. I don't know where else to go to get prayer or healing.
Time to man up.
Looks like it's finally real.
Edit: F this. I'm tired of feeling sad about this shit, ya'll. F it. By the way when she did this I didn't even give it an ounce of energy. Which was different. I need to stop putting so much care on all this and let God handle it. Also, I might feel like this cause I just pumped weights for 30 minutes and listened some upbeat rock music. That'll do it.
Edit 2: And F this little u/KrisAngeln who was too afraid to post it publicly and wants to message me saying I'm a nonstarter and a cuck and that he hopes my wife gives my kids a different dad. F you bro for your lack of compassion - cant even post it publicly? I hope you don't go through multiple family suicides like I did. If you did, you'd know what the f*** pain feels like.
Anyway - I agree with a lot of the messages here. Focusing on myself and my kids now. I'm done. This will be my last sob story (I'm not saying I won't ask for prayers, though).
Hey brother, I know the dark spiraling nightmare you are in where every exhale is another lock with a broken key clasp securely on your prison cell. Each thought and each moment are blurred into a murky cloud of despair as you strain to see a light that isn't there and will never be there. I know this intimately and I wish I could cut out a paper and write to you what worked for me but I don't have a set diet plan or routine with weights that will get you out of this but I do have this...
Brother, you are greater than the sum of all your fears. Think on that. Think of the scariest most displeasing thing you could be going through and I tell you now that you can over come that. I know you can because no where in the bible did God say, "give up, quit or just end it." With this situation you have before you now, I am praying to God on your behalf and I want you to know that it does end. It does. You will be happy again, you will smile again. The torment of a broken family is dire and shattering but God can sculpt with broken glass, God can weave tapestry from tatters and make kings from dust. Please stick with it. Your youngest daughter especially sounds like she needs you so much right now and I pray satan and his demons can't convince you otherwise.
God bless you, and may God keep you, protect you, and give you discernment, wisdom, and increased faith. I pray these ashes turn to dreams gilded in gold for you as time goes on and the slow but comforting aroma of hope fills your soul more and more each day.
There are people out there that love you not because we know what you look like or what you've done for us but because we know the soul inside a brave individual like yourself. Again brother....God bless you and we love you.
This made me weep cuz it hits too close to 'home'. 😢