I've always had a side that leaned toward procrastination, but never to the point that I seem physically, mentally unable to take care of business.
For example, I still have a number of task not started, or unfinished that I need to complete to protect my property, family wellbeing, in the event of civil unrest.
I have done somethings, but I am very frustrated that I am having such difficulty getting key important task completed. "You fucking had the chance and failed them", is how I will feel if I don't complete these things.
I am hesitant to blame what might be pure sorry ass laziness on some outside force, but damn it man, I swear I seem to be under the influence of some bad mojo, and was just wondering if I was alone in this.
Yes, and I cannot be sure of what it is. My narcissist parents, and one narcissist teacher certainly had a huge negative affect on me. As for other outside forces, I have no idea. I sleep extremely poorly, have nothing good going for me right now, and frequently wish I wouldn't wake up.
Something as simple (not simple really) as a better job would be a yuge, massive improvement in my life right now.