This is an amazing post. Thank you. The more I read, the more I agreed and felt someone understood how I feel on the daily. For YEARS they tried to shove depression pills at me. I didn’t feel normal/functional until they put me on Vyvanse. I didn’t think it was doing anything until I realized I was finally able to sleep more than three hours a night and not have my mind going in 12 different directions when trying to focus. I always figured it was due to all the trauma in my life. Funny you meantion special forces….I am a veteran and always chose the difficult jobs to do.