I am not new here. I have been banned before for dooming and for doubting. If admitting that results in another ban, so be it. I only wish to speak the truth and not lie.
I was previously not a 'believer' in the sense that many here are/were.
I did however have 'faith' in God through a direct experience. For a very long time, I thought I was 'above' religious interpretation. I saw it as 'metaphor' and looked down, however compassionately I believed it be, on those that took religious teachings to be 'literal'. I was misguided.
I also followed 'Q' and saw it as real in a sense, but more of teaching device created by a team of people, without 'anything else' going on. - I believe I was wrong.
With the attempted assassination of President Trump, all that has changed
I believe we witnessed a genuine miracle. 'Miracles' didn't happen to jive with what I thought possible about the laws of nature, God etc.
I began to question deeply and suffer immense existential terror. Panic attack upon panic attack, convinced I was about to die. I can't really put it into words, suffice to say it was really scary and horrifying. Something like 'Hell'
I could write a thousands of words for this section, it's really really hard to put it into words and I'm not very good at it. I'm imperfect, quite frankly I'm terrible and fail in many ways, as we all do, but truly I'm terrible, so I'm not going to try unless people really want to hear it and I can find the words somehow to do it. So I'll just skip this bit. I suffered greatly and I called upon anything, anyone, to bear this suffering and ease my burden. That's about as far as I can really go toward explaining it for now
From this great suffering I was filled, for the first time, with a sense of compassion. This suffering is the suffering that that all beings suffer and for the first time I felt true compassion. This is really the point I want to get at. This is something I have never experienced before. I 'thought' that I understood it, but I hadn't experienced it directly
my goodness how to even tie this together... Everything kind of flows from experiencing this infinite compassion/mercy/love/light
Q is real. It is time travel, essentially, and there is indeed a team of 'patriots' or 'white hats' with access to a machine or some device that receives data or information from a future point. Very complicated stuff, I believe I have found the mechanism by which this is possible. I'm happy to explain but it's very 'out there' stuff
For a long time, until this recent experience, I was 'resistant' toward the message and teachings of Jesus Christ as lord and saviour. As I said, I thought I was 'above it' and didn't 'need' this teaching to have my personal connection to God.
All that has changed
If you wish to continue reading, please know that my words are just words or metaphor. They are shaped by the framework of my experience and language and are according to my limited ability to express it with the language I am able
Jesus was an awakened being. He is of the 'father' or god, and he came to end the 'suffering' or 'sin' of other beings. He sacrificed his life out of 'love' or 'infinite compassion/mercy' so that all who call upon his name and follow his way may be 'saved' and have eternal life in 'heaven'.
His vow was to awaken all beings and rid them of suffering
I have made the same vow, as we are all called to make it
It is not through coercion or threat of judgement, but motivated by great compassion
I am not Jesus. I am not even a 'good' person. I have failed and will continue to fail and be imperfect.
What I can do, is to follow the 'way' or 'path'
It is like this,
Illuminated by the 'True light', infinite radiating compassion/mercy/love/light/peach/truth
shining forth, effortlessly luminous, from the hearts of an infinite number of other beings walking the path, motivated by compassion, etc
my words are poor and my explanation sucks. Jesus said it better
and that's enough, more than enough
the skilfulness of his teaching is unsurpassed amongst us
So I will shut up
God bless you :)
I'm happy to extrapolate further about Q if you would like and perhaps other elements but essential yes, 'Jesus saves' and I no longer walk with doubt.
I can't make threads because my account is new. It would also be hard to know where to begin or stop. This is as best as I could do for now. I don't really want to complicate it or make it hard to read, require special knowledge to understand or learn a new 'language' in order to grasp it. I've developed my own 'language' as best as I can but it's shitty and ignorant really. Others have already said it better.
but at the same time, expressing it is what we are called to do. We have to accept our imperfections and limitations.. We are not 'bad' simply because we can't express it perfectly. For a long time I would feel immense guilt whenever I tried to express it, because I knew i was 'messing up' and saying 'unwise' things. It sort of drove me to refine it to a 'simpler' approach. I'm still working towards simpler and better ways, it's a process. We're all doing our best :)
What I can do is make sure that all my words and actions are guided by compassion so that the light of truth may shine forth from them.
This is what we can all do. We can love each other, as we ourselves are loved. We can treat each other with honesty, fairness and kindness.
I mean I didn't come up with that it's been said countless ways but now I see for the first time.
and somehow, ultimately, it means turning the other cheek and loving even those that hate us. Yes, even our enemies and the great armies of darkness.
I'm not at a point where I can 'accept' that, these people are wicked, 'evil'
and yet at some level, simply ignorant. Misguided.
It is not for me to forgive them, at this time, because I am not Jesus and I am not perfect. The compassion i feel is not the 'full' 'complete' perfect compassion. My heart is not perfectly pure. This is the process we undergo, this is 'through a glass, darkly, but then in full.
would you like to hear my story?
If just one person wishes me to share, I will
But i will not force it upon anyone or speak without being asked
I would love to share if you would like to listen
I would love for you to share your story!
I will try to 'abbreviate' it :)
I am not new here. I have been banned before for dooming and for doubting. If admitting that results in another ban, so be it. I only wish to speak the truth and not lie.
I was previously not a 'believer' in the sense that many here are/were.
I did however have 'faith' in God through a direct experience. For a very long time, I thought I was 'above' religious interpretation. I saw it as 'metaphor' and looked down, however compassionately I believed it be, on those that took religious teachings to be 'literal'. I was misguided.
I also followed 'Q' and saw it as real in a sense, but more of teaching device created by a team of people, without 'anything else' going on. - I believe I was wrong.
With the attempted assassination of President Trump, all that has changed
I believe we witnessed a genuine miracle. 'Miracles' didn't happen to jive with what I thought possible about the laws of nature, God etc.
I began to question deeply and suffer immense existential terror. Panic attack upon panic attack, convinced I was about to die. I can't really put it into words, suffice to say it was really scary and horrifying. Something like 'Hell'
I could write a thousands of words for this section, it's really really hard to put it into words and I'm not very good at it. I'm imperfect, quite frankly I'm terrible and fail in many ways, as we all do, but truly I'm terrible, so I'm not going to try unless people really want to hear it and I can find the words somehow to do it. So I'll just skip this bit. I suffered greatly and I called upon anything, anyone, to bear this suffering and ease my burden. That's about as far as I can really go toward explaining it for now
From this great suffering I was filled, for the first time, with a sense of compassion. This suffering is the suffering that that all beings suffer and for the first time I felt true compassion. This is really the point I want to get at. This is something I have never experienced before. I 'thought' that I understood it, but I hadn't experienced it directly
my goodness how to even tie this together... Everything kind of flows from experiencing this infinite compassion/mercy/love/light
Q is real. It is time travel, essentially, and there is indeed a team of 'patriots' or 'white hats' with access to a machine or some device that receives data or information from a future point. Very complicated stuff, I believe I have found the mechanism by which this is possible. I'm happy to explain but it's very 'out there' stuff
For a long time, until this recent experience, I was 'resistant' toward the message and teachings of Jesus Christ as lord and saviour. As I said, I thought I was 'above it' and didn't 'need' this teaching to have my personal connection to God.
All that has changed
If you wish to continue reading, please know that my words are just words or metaphor. They are shaped by the framework of my experience and language and are according to my limited ability to express it with the language I am able
Jesus was an awakened being. He is of the 'father' or god, and he came to end the 'suffering' or 'sin' of other beings. He sacrificed his life out of 'love' or 'infinite compassion/mercy' so that all who call upon his name and follow his way may be 'saved' and have eternal life in 'heaven'.
His vow was to awaken all beings and rid them of suffering
I have made the same vow, as we are all called to make it
It is not through coercion or threat of judgement, but motivated by great compassion
I am not Jesus. I am not even a 'good' person. I have failed and will continue to fail and be imperfect.
What I can do, is to follow the 'way' or 'path'
It is like this,
Illuminated by the 'True light', infinite radiating compassion/mercy/love/light/peach/truth
shining forth, effortlessly luminous, from the hearts of an infinite number of other beings walking the path, motivated by compassion, etc
my words are poor and my explanation sucks. Jesus said it better
and that's enough, more than enough
the skilfulness of his teaching is unsurpassed amongst us
So I will shut up
God bless you :)
I'm happy to extrapolate further about Q if you would like and perhaps other elements but essential yes, 'Jesus saves' and I no longer walk with doubt.
Please make a post about your experience...wow!
I can't make threads because my account is new. It would also be hard to know where to begin or stop. This is as best as I could do for now. I don't really want to complicate it or make it hard to read, require special knowledge to understand or learn a new 'language' in order to grasp it. I've developed my own 'language' as best as I can but it's shitty and ignorant really. Others have already said it better.
but at the same time, expressing it is what we are called to do. We have to accept our imperfections and limitations.. We are not 'bad' simply because we can't express it perfectly. For a long time I would feel immense guilt whenever I tried to express it, because I knew i was 'messing up' and saying 'unwise' things. It sort of drove me to refine it to a 'simpler' approach. I'm still working towards simpler and better ways, it's a process. We're all doing our best :)
What I can do is make sure that all my words and actions are guided by compassion so that the light of truth may shine forth from them.
This is what we can all do. We can love each other, as we ourselves are loved. We can treat each other with honesty, fairness and kindness. I mean I didn't come up with that it's been said countless ways but now I see for the first time.
and somehow, ultimately, it means turning the other cheek and loving even those that hate us. Yes, even our enemies and the great armies of darkness.
I'm not at a point where I can 'accept' that, these people are wicked, 'evil'
and yet at some level, simply ignorant. Misguided.
It is not for me to forgive them, at this time, because I am not Jesus and I am not perfect. The compassion i feel is not the 'full' 'complete' perfect compassion. My heart is not perfectly pure. This is the process we undergo, this is 'through a glass, darkly, but then in full.