I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.
My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.
I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.
I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.
Try to keep things simple. Live one day at a time. Trust God...use everything you are going through as an opportunity to trust Him in Whom all things were created! I have been in worse shape than you are in...way worse! Although I was hardly a good example of how to trust God in those days, God still was there, always. Don't let the evil one play tricks on your mind telling you things like you don't have enough faith or God's not there. Lies! All lies! God can bring you through this difficult time no matter how strong you are. God's power is made perfect in our weakness. Amen?
Praying for you...remember, a new day brings new hope and your situation can change for the better where and when you least expect it!
Finally, your husband needs you...you need each other. Pray for your husband. Never forget what it was like when you were dating. Depression is absolutely devastating. Jesus, literally is the answer. Read God's Word daily.
In essence, use this time to get as close to God as you can and never wander away...