I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.
My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.
I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.
I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.
My instinct is to encourage you to push your husband. However I would try the opposite. First let me tell you I was the main bread winner in my family for years. It finally started hurting my health. Men lose faith in their ability to be a good man when their wife does better then they do. Find little thing that he is doing and praise him. Dont be fake maybe its the way he speaks to the kids. Or that he didn't make a mess in the kitchen and leave it for you. Find something to honestly praise him about. Maybe it will only be once a week and maybe he won't even notice. Do fun things with the kids where he can see. If he notices the family being strong he may comment and if he does ask him to join in. Saying thank you to him also helps but if you can rebuild his view of himself it helps so much. As you draw closer as a family you can face anything. I know you are in an urgent situation but try your best to not complain in front of him. Remove all chaos front the home. Keep the house as neat as possible. Have the kids help. A two year old can match socks and feels grown up while doing it. Your family needs confidence that they are capable before they step out the door. You are the mom and responsible for your family feels about your situation. You can't do it all. Enlist help. You can't build a foundation of financial success with out you. BTW, in closing, search indeed for Enterprise jobs. My husband worked from home four 4 years. His pay was around $24 an hour when cancer ended his career. Not bad when you have no drive and arent going out to lunch or dinner (because you're tired) all the time. Above all be kind to yourself, let people think what their going to think. As long as you can look in the mirror and face yourself its none of their business. God bless you. You have a tough road ahead but you can do it.