I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.
My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.
I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.
I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.
It might be the case that depression is not from low serotonin like we are told, but more so either low dopamine or low total available energy, often as a result of chronic stress.
If that is the case, it make sense that people with it get addicted to video games or books, because the brain is desperate to either get a dopamine hit or withdraw from life stresses.
This guy has a lot of interesting ideas on depression. Some of them are pretty easy: daylight for the eyes, D and B vitamins, gelatin or collagen peptides and sugar or honey.