I had a health scare recently with my oldest son. He is 100% okay but the incident really had me thinking about how often I thank God for his mercy and kindness.
As a brief backstory to what I thought would be a quick post: I grew up a sinner, and around the same year Q came into my life(2017) is when I decided to go up to the front of the church and ask God for his forgiveness. After a VERY direct conversation with God about my fidelity issues with my girlfriend, I did the unthinkable(in my mind) and told her that I had not been faithful to her when we first met. Girlfriend did not take it well, but she also did not leave me [Thank you God for giving my (now) wife the strength and compassion to stay with me]. What happened next was a ridiculous amount of "energy" transfer between me and the sky. I felt a beam of energy from my toes to my head and shooting out to the sky above. I asked a preacher a few years later what that was and he said the Holy Spirit was entering me.
Long story short, I never feel worthy of his amazing grace. It is an incredible feeling to have my health, my wellbeing, my needs all taken care of by God's grace and divine love. My children laugh, my dogs wag their tail, my flowers bloom. Thank you God for this life. I am trying every day to become a better version of myself to honor you.
Thank you for waking me up to the realities around me. Thank you for this community that is here to help me process everything that is happening. Thank you for the opportunity to be a part of something greater than myself. Amen.
God is AMAZING. Just like many others the majority of my life was filled with half hearted belief and half hearted faith..... you know, when it was convenient. Then, about 10 years ago, there was this slow awakening happening inside me. Things began to have different meanings and a clearer picture of my life started to emerge. But then about the time of Trump's appearance on the public stage, that awakening became like a huge force or pull toward my faith and belief. It was indescribable the awakening that started happening. I can only sorta describe it like being bathed in a warm bath of knowledge and a stripping of ignorance. God is awakening me. My hunger for his word, his grace, his love, his guidance, his forgiveness, his glory, and his blessings fill me daily. Everyday I thank God for every single blessing.... from each blade of grass to the sun that illuminates our world. The miracle of every aspect that God created for us. We are his greatest creation and we all need to be there for each other. We are awakening others and we are God's army of light. I can now see all the evil that has spread across this earth and to the people. My eyes almost can't believe what I see now. My heart is so broken. My mind can sometimes become so overwhelmed with the depth of evil that exists in every aspect of our world. We must be the light, we must help God turn this around, we must do our part to help save humanity, and we must not fail. Trump cannot do this alone. We are all sinners, but now we must be God's warriors. So, we FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT.
I gave my son a book on quantum mechanics (you know, like every good dad should!). In going through it, he noted the wave/particle duality of light, and posed the question if people are both mass and light...it sure does explain the phrase "I am the light of the world" when you think about it.