I had a health scare recently with my oldest son. He is 100% okay but the incident really had me thinking about how often I thank God for his mercy and kindness.

As a brief backstory to what I thought would be a quick post: I grew up a sinner, and around the same year Q came into my life(2017) is when I decided to go up to the front of the church and ask God for his forgiveness. After a VERY direct conversation with God about my fidelity issues with my girlfriend, I did the unthinkable(in my mind) and told her that I had not been faithful to her when we first met. Girlfriend did not take it well, but she also did not leave me [Thank you God for giving my (now) wife the strength and compassion to stay with me]. What happened next was a ridiculous amount of "energy" transfer between me and the sky. I felt a beam of energy from my toes to my head and shooting out to the sky above. I asked a preacher a few years later what that was and he said the Holy Spirit was entering me.

Long story short, I never feel worthy of his amazing grace. It is an incredible feeling to have my health, my wellbeing, my needs all taken care of by God's grace and divine love. My children laugh, my dogs wag their tail, my flowers bloom. Thank you God for this life. I am trying every day to become a better version of myself to honor you.

Thank you for waking me up to the realities around me. Thank you for this community that is here to help me process everything that is happening. Thank you for the opportunity to be a part of something greater than myself. Amen.