As someone who was baptized Catholic, grew up and left the church for a while, and eventually returned, I can tell you that I didn’t really understand the depth of my Catholic faith. It wasn’t until I started listening to Catholic apologetics on the Catholic Answers radio program that I started to better understand everything. I really encourage you to listen in and learn your faith in a deeper way. You can even go to catholic.com , type in any question you have, and find articles, interviews, etc… on the topic. I hope you decide to look into it. I laugh so hard when I see all these non-Catholics here on GAW trying to explain Catholic teaching and theology. Go to catholic.com , listen to Catholic Answers on the radio, and learn from people who REALLY understand the Catholic faith.