oh boy. long story.

i was raised lefty atheist on the west coast of canada.. never baptised.. only child of a single mother.

i was always extremely attracted to the feminine. that's a masculine trait... ...but aside from a few early relationships, in most cases i just didn't have the confidence to make it happen. I didn't understand the role of my masculinity, and it seemed easier to express the femininity i desired, just to have it in my life. i was pretty friendless too, so the lesbian blend of friendship and sexuality, without a place for the masculine, seemed ideal.

i'm still climbing out of a pretty big hole... but at least i can see the light now. somebody up there is looking out for me. i think i'm blending it nicely. i studied a lot of weird metaphysics, and i like having access to some more feminine modes of thinking.

dodged a huge bullet by never taking steps to alter myself in any way. God is good. and the timing was kindof perfect for me to ride the redpill wave and learn the healthy role of masculinity.

so that's basically the short version. it's not my fav subject, but i share because i think others are on similar journeys.