Getting so difficult to just keep waiting and waiting. By this point I fully expected something dramatic to be going on that makes it obvious something is happening but still nothing. Of course I know there is lots going on, I mean there is literally nothing I can point to to the sleep walkers in my life that suggests anything is going on at all. If nothing happens with this financial system soon, I’m going to end up getting crushed and all my plans for the future will be gone. I was really holding on hard, hoping to keep things together long enough to get to the end but it is starting to look like it’s going to be a Pyrrhic victory. Economic devastation I will never recover from.