You're right it is surreal. I'm talking to my family openly about the corruption and while I'm sitting here praying and reading Ephesians a wave of realization hit me that the whole time I was quiet about what I knew, I was being complicit. I was so afraid to speak the truth even though I knew millions of children were being abducted every year and I had the power to do something by speaking out, and I never did, just to save my reputation with my family. I'm so glad I was reading Ephesians when I had that apophony because the grief hit me like a bag of bricks. I couldn't believe how selfish I was. But the Lord forgives, so we as a humanity are so blessed, we can still procure a future that makes the world a better place.
You're right it is surreal. I'm talking to my family openly about the corruption and while I'm sitting here praying and reading Ephesians a wave of realization hit me that the whole time I was quiet about what I knew, I was being complicit. I was so afraid to speak the truth even though I knew millions of children were being abducted every year and I had the power to do something by speaking out, and I never did, just to save my reputation with my family. I'm so glad I was reading Ephesians when I had that apophony because the grief hit me like a bag of bricks. I couldn't believe how selfish I was. But the Lord forgives, so we as a humanity are so blessed, we can still procure a future that makes the world a better place.
It may sound weird but I almost feel born again, like some great weight has been lifted off of me.
That's really awesome to hear, that's exactly how I feel ; )