I woke up this morning and i was afraid to check my phone for election results. I just laid in bed thinking of so many outcomes and the worries i have. I finally got up, took a shower and still had not checked. I finally sat down and checked my phone. Obviously the first thing i saw was Trumps big win. Its so weird, Ive been anticipating this moment for 4 years. I check this site daily 10 times a day to be filled in on the goings on. Its kept me sane the last 4 years. But when i saw he won, i felt nothing. I dont know why. Was i expecting more drama and chaos over this election? All day long ive been in a daze. Barely any feelings of celebration. My whole lawn has been decorated with Trump signs and flags for 2 months. All the people that surround me closely are excited and cant believe how im acting. I dont know what it is. Im happy obviously that Trump won. Something in my gut just doesnt feel right. Anyone else feel this way? Maybe i'll feel different tomorrow. I feel more needs to happen before inauguration. Alot more. I dont know. Not trying to be a downer. Im rarely confused with my own emotions.
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You sound like you doing well,fren.
PTSD comes in many forms. In this Deep State situation, it's different from direct trauma like a combat situation or the trauma a Law Enforcement Officer or rescue worker faces.
In this situation, it's a slow, drawn out torture, especially when you can see Evil and a lot of humanity is completely oblivious.
We're getting there, fren.
Ya your right. Thank you. I'm usually so strong. I still am. But today surprised me. I guess just being semi emotionless isn't the worst reaction I could have. I've handled the last 15 years pretty well. I'm just not used to being without emotion. I'm usually very emotional. I gamble a bit for fun. Sometimes I go to bed before a game is done. I wake up the same as I did today and check my phone for the bet. Sometimes it says +$200 win. I jump up and yell and celebrate 1st thing in the morning. I Send my wife and buds the win. Today's win was a million times bigger than a gambling win and I didn't jump up or do anything. No celebration. Hahaha. So weird.
A lot of us are feeling a bit like that, fren. The old phase is over.( Trump out of office) We have entered a new, unknown phase with the Election victory.
These feelings and this entire situation we are in will be something to tell future generations about.
Be proud you had the foresight and intelligence to be part of this monumental movement.
Cheers, fren!
Your routine this morning, and the lack of emotion, mirrors mine exactly. However, I did not see my lack of emotion as being weird or “off” in any way. I might be wrong, but I see it as a reflection of having been awakened to so, so much over the past four years (and I have considered myself “awake” for decades). If POTUS won in 2020 (which I believe he did), I know my response would have been very different back then than this morning’s. We’ve seen too much, and learned too much since then. Consider yourself a rational minded person.
Your right. We've seen alot. We actually are in a war. It's different than battlefield killing. That's wayyyyyy worse. But we are experiencing some of the same mental reactions on a lower level.