Don’t be hard on yourself. Standing up to evil when it’s cloaked in white coats “trying to help” is not easy. It’s important to move forward. When we always look back at the things we should have done (guilty of this myself) it brings sadness to our souls and that’s just what the Enemy wants. He comes to destroy our souls. When those thoughts come into mind say “Satan get behind me in the name of Jesus Christ” then ask Jesus to take your feelings of sadness and regret away. It works for me.
Be rest assured your mom in a better place with God.
Amen. And thank you. It’s been a very hard road to travel but I’ve become closer to God along the way. Losing her was hard enough (she was my person) but it caused my brother to spiral (he is deaf and mentally disabled but with little assistance he lived on his own) and he put me through a nightmare for nearly 3 years. Eviction from violence, jail, alcohol, drugs, court, hospitals, weekly motels, homeless shelters, etc. all on my shoulders until a facility finally took him. I tried to get him help the whole time but our system is so broken. I practice daily to humble myself and give my troubles to Christ. However, the body keeps score of the trauma we endure which forced me to seek help. I began to experience physical pain (chest and back) with a clean bill of health but I’m taking steps (therapy at a Christian based practice) to work through it all. I begin EMDR treatment for trauma tomorrow.
Don’t be hard on yourself. Standing up to evil when it’s cloaked in white coats “trying to help” is not easy. It’s important to move forward. When we always look back at the things we should have done (guilty of this myself) it brings sadness to our souls and that’s just what the Enemy wants. He comes to destroy our souls. When those thoughts come into mind say “Satan get behind me in the name of Jesus Christ” then ask Jesus to take your feelings of sadness and regret away. It works for me. Be rest assured your mom in a better place with God.
Amen. And thank you. It’s been a very hard road to travel but I’ve become closer to God along the way. Losing her was hard enough (she was my person) but it caused my brother to spiral (he is deaf and mentally disabled but with little assistance he lived on his own) and he put me through a nightmare for nearly 3 years. Eviction from violence, jail, alcohol, drugs, court, hospitals, weekly motels, homeless shelters, etc. all on my shoulders until a facility finally took him. I tried to get him help the whole time but our system is so broken. I practice daily to humble myself and give my troubles to Christ. However, the body keeps score of the trauma we endure which forced me to seek help. I began to experience physical pain (chest and back) with a clean bill of health but I’m taking steps (therapy at a Christian based practice) to work through it all. I begin EMDR treatment for trauma tomorrow.
Good for you. EMDR just might be the missing piece for a full recovery. I will be praying for a total and complete healing. God Bless 🙏🏼