WOW fren I can't thank you enough for this response. Truly it helped lift my soul. Yeah it's been a tough journey but I have faith that God will continue to move mountains. I am also finding that the chaos and turmoil is awakeing something within me that is giving me a boldness to speak up about the Truths Jesus has revealed to me. I am learning to speak truth...take a hit and keep on loving. I find my gifts are appreciated until it's directed at them...then I have to see the convicted heart come out and see how they process that. Some in my church call me the sheepdog or cheerleader yet I just like being what Jesus needs me to be

Thanks again for responding. Maybe we can PM each other and keep in touch and pray and share thoughts. No pressure just wanted you to know if you are willing I would love to keep talking...even if it's just here on this post OR something like texting or calling. Your choice. God bless fren. Love you