First, I am sorry for your loss. When my FIL died, my MIL was rather stoic. It was not unexpected, but she had been with him for 50 years. She said to me later that it didn't seem real, but 6 months later was when it really set in. After everyone else has "moved on," I suspect something similar will happen to Erika Kirk.
There is something I can't quite put my finger on though. I watched her speak about forgiveness. I don't think she has though. She is saying one thing but she has a lot of anger in her expressions - and rightfully so. I am not saying she is lying on purpose, but I think she may be lying to herself. And maybe she has to at this point to get through it. But I suspect she will have days where she thinks very differently.
I realize this might be my own shortcomings. And I feel like an asshole for even thinking about it. But something is just off. Maybe it is a result of just being exhausted by constant manipulation.
I agree with you there. You still have to deal with your own feelings when forgiving anyone. The desire is there, but it takes time to actually deal with the emotions inside yourself.
Exactly. I don't think she realizes yet she is going to have days when she is furious not just with 'that young man' but with CK - when the kids are misbehaving, or having nightmares - why did you have to go to that stupid campus? Why didn't you protect yourself better? Why did you have to leave us? WHY?
Like you said. the desire may be there but she isn't even out of the starting blocks.
First, I am sorry for your loss. When my FIL died, my MIL was rather stoic. It was not unexpected, but she had been with him for 50 years. She said to me later that it didn't seem real, but 6 months later was when it really set in. After everyone else has "moved on," I suspect something similar will happen to Erika Kirk.
There is something I can't quite put my finger on though. I watched her speak about forgiveness. I don't think she has though. She is saying one thing but she has a lot of anger in her expressions - and rightfully so. I am not saying she is lying on purpose, but I think she may be lying to herself. And maybe she has to at this point to get through it. But I suspect she will have days where she thinks very differently.
I realize this might be my own shortcomings. And I feel like an asshole for even thinking about it. But something is just off. Maybe it is a result of just being exhausted by constant manipulation.
I agree with you there. You still have to deal with your own feelings when forgiving anyone. The desire is there, but it takes time to actually deal with the emotions inside yourself.
Exactly. I don't think she realizes yet she is going to have days when she is furious not just with 'that young man' but with CK - when the kids are misbehaving, or having nightmares - why did you have to go to that stupid campus? Why didn't you protect yourself better? Why did you have to leave us? WHY?
Like you said. the desire may be there but she isn't even out of the starting blocks.
Yep. It'll be months before the reality of the situation hits her completely.