financially hard times I talk to God every day like we're having a conversation, but I'm feeling super anxious that when I graduate from cybersecurity school, that I can't even get a job. I ask God every day for a chance to get better and to do better for our family, and we are blessed in a lot of ways. But we are financially now struggling. I bought silver, because that was all I could afford, but it's not nearly enough to get by. We're paying off debts, but our grocery and gas bills are skyrocketing, and it is not like we go out every other weekend. We have never flown on a plane together. We have never travelled to see this beautiful world, because we want financial security first.

I work in machining at a big company; the pay is stagnant, while the expenses are going up. I struggle to get promoted because the culture favors more visible people, and not those doing more work than them. I learned the machines that I needed to learn to get promoted, because I believed the people who lied to me. It is never in the budget for me to get promoted, after I have done the work. But some new guy that walks in the door makes higher pay than I do, with no experience. The carrot always dangles and we make airplane parts. We are a billions dollar company, and we all struggled to get just 3% raises this year, with record profits. I'm just tired of working for people who constantly lie to me and screw me over, but maybe my expectations are too high.

I can't leave my job, because I can't find anything that pays better, within a fifty mile radius, but I am a mass applying and trying everything I can to find something better. I have gotten one unsuccessful screening call out of hundreds of applications so far. And most of these are five dollars less an hour than what I make right now. I know I am not alone, i'm trying to figure out how to deal with it.

I decided to do something about it, so I am going to school to improve our income. But what if the economy never improves? How do we feed our families?

When two incomes in the household are both in manufacturing, which we aren't getting paid enough for now, how do we ever succeed in getting ahead? We just want to be able to save money and give our kids a future. My husband's employer treats him really well, but they don't have a position open for me right now.

I work overtime but I can only do so much because we have a little kid at home, and 2 older steps on weekends, and I am in school.

I know it's wrong to be envious and to look at what someone else has and want what they have, and i'm wondering what i'm doing wrong. Am I showing a lack of faith by being frustrated at our situation?