I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.

My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.

I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.

I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.

I love in the middle of nowhere northern California and there have been F-22's flying around all morning, reminds me of San Diego. Where is that plane map?

I called my Ob for another baby check-up appointment. I have to listen to a long message about what to do if you have COVID. Their next one used to be monkeypox but luckily in the new year they decided to skip it. Then the third one used to be reminding people to get their COVID shots or booster which were always available. But now they say they don't offer COVID shots. They say I would have to go online and find another place to do that.

There used to be a post about it I don't know what happened to it. I asked the county for them, they didn't give them to me. There was some process to try make them or something. Does anyone know about this?

I love in northern California. There are normally a few Chemtrails there has been none for the past three days now it's raining. Last time it rained it was the same. So I am guessing the drought is just because of the spraying.

I thought it was over. Then out my window there was tons of trucks and cars with American flags going north on 5 (near Arbuckle, California). It was so cool to see people fighting back. I wish I could find out where they are going to be. It would be fun to join them.

I have laughed at people that say food shortages are coming. I live in a farm area and crops are doing excellent. The ground around here is expensive but good you can plant wheat without putting fertilizer but nobody has in eighty years cause other things sell for more. Now wheat is everywhere. I have Almonds but all the row crops are wheat. People like to leave fields blank, no more of that crap, lots of high producing stuff everywhere. I don't think we will starve but I don't know where the strawberries, melons and veggies will be grown.

Yesterday I went back to the same store that kicked me out for not wearing a mask a week ago. They let me in without comment. I was walking fast holding the baby in one hand just getting some milk. I went around a corner and almost ran into this lady, who wasn't wearing a mask either. She was surprised and went on to a nervous smile. It was amazing to see someone's face. To see the emotion of strangers. It's been a day and I'm still so glad I got to see that sweet lady.

It feels like such defeat. I got kicked out of one grocery store yesterday and two this morning. We can't just eat out every meal.

I've been shopping mask free since February. But now all the grocery stores went obnoxious. Likely some bored local government bureaucrat decided to write some fines.

I thought my area would get out of covid soon, but really sometimes you just have to move.