He is from my district. I have called and emailed him numerous times in anger at his voting. I can believe and can’t believe they are turning the house over to the demons. Ken Buck stated that there will be a total of 5 leaving before November.

I am sitting at my kitchen table crying. Not the crying of something sad. The type of crying that shatters your soul.

I reach out to you because you are anons. You don’t know me, and most likely never will.

The Great Awakening has not only opened my eyes to the utter evils that humankind has endured for thousands of generations, but it has also opened my eyes to the evil of SELF.

I am going through some serious self reflection. On the outside I appear like I should. On the inside….

Are my sins. My sins of thoughts, actions, lying, cheating. Always thinking I am a good person, but I’m not.

I stole 50 cent pieces from my dad’s dresser and rode my bike to the candy store when I was young. I stole a caramel from the grocery store when I was 4. I ripped tulips out of someone’s garden so I could give them to my mom. I rode on the back of a motorcycle at 15 going so fast I thought “what if I were to die right now?” Found out later the driver was drunk. My mom called the police when she found out I was on the bike. (They picked me up)

I lost my virginity at 18 to a narcissist and it has been downhill personally ever since. I gave myself to him because I thought we would be married. We weren’t.

I married a broken man because broken men made me feel better about myself. If I loved them enough, cooked beautiful meals for them, strive to be perfect, they would become whole.

I start something. I get excited and if I screw up or something else captures my attention, I quit. My intentions are always pure, but the self loathing I feel not fulfilling my intentions is gross.

I don’t even know who I really am. A full blown sinner I can tell you that much. I imagine Christ next to me. Sitting with me now. Forgiving me. Having mercy on me. I don’t feel it.

There is more I could tell you. My skeletons. I have too much shame to even say to you.

Maybe this is true repentance. The crumbling of ego.

I am sorry for everything I have done that wasn’t good and whole. So very sorry.

Last night I had a nightmare. I dreamt that God was gone. I kept screaming for Him. The Holy Spirit was gone. As I looked up there was a blackish brownish square in the sky. Whatever it was I knew it was dead.

I began to cry and scream “where are you?!” Silence.

I have never really “felt” the presence of God. I tell you this, I sure felt it when He was gone.

It was completely terrifying.

I know I am supposed to share this. Even though I have no idea how to interpret it.

Need help here….in Wisconsin, Midwest, and into Tennessee the air quality is in a deep red alert. And has been for the last week.

Supposedly coming from the Canada fires. My co-workers and I are questioning if this is the case. Why is it isolated to the Midwest? Where and what is the real source of this toxic spew?

Also looked at supposed fires. They show they are all over our state. Not true.

Anyone smarter than I when it comes to jet stream patterns and wind patterns. Would like your wisdom.

Never in my 20 years of living here have I seen anything like this. It is making many so sick. It smells like a chemical.

BEAUTY

Her cover swelled from Tears of past The damage visible

Colors faded as Bleeding in her soul

She smells of dust and damp And years spent in the dark

I hold her in my hands And bring her to my lips “So nice to meet you” I say As I kiss her swollen face

Yellowed and torn So delicate you are She opens her tender self

I turn her softly So very carefully As she shows me All within

What she reveals! I can not release Time ticks swiftly by

I say goodnight I sigh So grateful for her words

“You may be old dear friend Cracked and broken Beauty fade away

But hear my lovely Hear me speak Hear what I must say

What lies inside Your broken case Is wonder all its own

Your wisdom And your joy Is all we need to know

It’s what’s within Which holds the key The truth, DEAR BOOK Oh! Your eternal beauty!”

J.S.

The evil ones are changing humanity’s DNA, eliminating the GOD gene like in the days of Noah. Noah, who possibly was the only one left who was not genetically altered. He still carried Gods genes.

My questions are these.

Since we are spiritual beings, and our bodies are the vehicles for our souls, Is genetic modification not only physical, but spiritual as well? Can the separation from God happen not only in the flesh but also in the spirit?

Is it humanity’s fault that this happened to them in the days of Noah? Is it humanity’s fault now?

God Bless you all.

I fully believe he is telling us it would not have happened this way if he was POTUS. It brings me comfort. What are your thoughts?

The walls of Jericho fell from the Lord ordered blast of trumpets. The walls of our WW prison will fall from the blast of the horns.

I feel The Holy Spirit led me to post this. I rarely post anything. God Bless all of humanity.