Rethink your life. Seriously, reach out to the family members you ostracized. Get therapy.
On the off chance Biden is sworn in and nothing eventful happens (I know this isn't likely to happen, I believe the signs, but can't help but have a sliver of doubt, but let's just say IF) is anyone else going to seriously question Q and what they've been doing for the past few years? For me, Biden inaugurated is the line in the sand. If it happens, I'm not letting the goalposts get moved. If he's in, that's it. It's over for me.