Same. Welcome brother.
There are important clues here.
There is a club. Some are in it, and some are not. Thank you George (Carlin).
This is a critical topic. Why?
It is important to know how their structure works, as knowledge is power. Therefore it is a threat to them if those of us who are not in their club understand the structure of their club, as we could then understand their weaknesses, and possibly know how to take down their structure.
Therefore, controlled oppo. How extensive is this club? How all-pervasive is it? Use critical thinking.
What is the most terrifying thing for us to think about? Is that also the thing they don't want discussed, or known? Why is it also terrifying to them?
Is a picture forming?
Are you following me?