I grew up bouncing around different churches; Baptist, Methodist, non-denominational, and eventually stopped going as an adult. So I got a sampling of different sides of the Christian church. I still held onto my faith and deepened my relationship with Christ, but I was turned off to churches by scandals and internal church politics. When dating, too often I came across attitudes that "my denomination has it all figured out and the rest are wrong" - very much dividing Christians into sects. I had this feeling I needed to get out of "Churchianity," the religious side of Christianity and focus on my personal relationship to the Lord. So I saught out answers to questions the churches never answered. I learned about apologetics, church history, historicism, biblical history, and kept learning whatever I could find.

Then I discovered Q, discovering some of the most heinous evil things going on in our world, and a fire burned in my spirit. True, real evil existed in the world and something needed to be done about it. Until then, much of the "evil" in the world I could dismiss as difference of opinion, but now I saw true evil, which in turn strengthened my belief in good as well. Relativism was 100% dead to me.

Since then, I have tried to return to church. And while it is nice to be around fellow believers again, I can't help but see ignorance all around me. They have no idea what is really going on in the world. In fact, I see that the church has little to no effect on the world around it. Sure, the pastor may occasionally preach on something going on politically like Roe v Wade, and they do engage with the community outside here and there, but usually we sing some songs, say some prayers and everyone goes out for drinks after church. It's just going through the motions each week. And it's like this at all the churches I've tried lately.

"Be sure to join us for part 6 in our ongoing series on doubts!" "Don't forget about the BBQ next Sunday!" "Bring your friends for movie night!"

The church has become the dog in the This is Fine meme. It's like a bubble you can visit every Sunday to pretend the world outside isn't going to hell. I want to shake them all and show them what's really going on. We are the body of Christ and we should be doing something - ANYTHING to fight this evil! Pastors should be exposing this evil, showing the influence of Satanism's "do what thou wilt" mentality on generations of young people. The church should be fighting back with everything it has. Instead it's all just going through the motions.

Where is the passion? Where is the fire? We are at a crucial crossroads in our history in the US, as well as in the history of mankind. The enemy is advancing well beyond what anyone thought possible just a decade ago.

Have others experienced this? Is it harder to go to church after waking up? Is Mark Taylor right in saying that churches are slaves to Babylon through the 501c3? Is this the lukewarm church age of Revelation? What can we do as the Ekklesia, the body of Christ, to stand up against evil of this magnitude?

This has been weighing on my heart for some time and I appreciate any insight and prayers.

God bless!