I've been kinda sad for the last couple of days and don't know what to do. I've read some posts on here time to time and they seemed to give some good advice so i figured it was time to get on this becase this situation is so messed up.

I'm a nurse and I've been doing things I that could be seen as unethical. I could loose my job and maybe go to jail. I was able to fake my own jabb because the nurse who was supposed to give it to me was on our side. It wasn't too hard. We discussed it. So she just pretended to put it in me and then sprayed it on the floor. Filled out one of the vax cards so I had my papers and I was good. I was so relieved.

I was one of the nurses also giving out the vaxxine. There was this old man. He wasn't like retirement age but he looked to be in his 50s. He sat down to get jabbed and started weeping. I asked him what was wrong but he could barely speak. He said that he didn't want to but he had to to keep his job. I felt so bad for him. So I did the same thing that my ally did for me. He was soooo happy. It was kind of refreshing and I felt soooo good about it. This all happened months ago.

The thing is I told my boyfriend about it. He was reluctant to accept what I had done was okay. My grandma died a few weeks ago so we looked up her obituary to see the picture and what was written. But when we were scrolling the page to see hers (they had like a bunch on the page) I saw the old man I hadn't given the vaxxine to. I started crying profusly. I was litterally shaking and crying. My boyfriend was like what is wrong with you? And I told him, that's the old man I told you about. His obituary said he died due to complications after catching covid.

My boyfriend was disgusted with me. Now weeks later he said he wants to leave me unless I actually get vaxxed. I was so blindsided but I don't know what to do. I love him and I don't wanna breakup. But he is so mad at me. We met at a concert and he was just the nicest guy. We've been together for years. But now he keeps hating me and calling me a murderer. He's in law school and says what i did could put me in jail. He keeps pressureing me to turn myself in. I don't know what to do.