ya bro my focus and desires and etc have all been hyper focused on this... its like anything too much dopamine hope doom etc up and down...
its like just not healthy... I took a long warm shower and dude that was amazing... like i dk man i dont want to be mad anymore or care about shit other than being kind, calm, happy, and enthusiastic
and gamblign, politics, bad thoughts etc just drain me
why crazy?
for the las 10 years 2k a year