I have been awake for 10 years now but it feels like my mental health from it is at it's worst right now. Like the title says I am having a hard time interacting with a lot of people in my day to day life especially being in a deep blue state (WA). Between the covid crap and knowing the truth about pedophilia I live in a completely different reality and world then the average person.
I don't wear my mask at big box stores most of the time. I do with my mom because she doesn't want to be harassed so I respect that. If it's just my Dad and I we go maskless together.
My aunt came to visit me with her new puppy the other day and was wearing two fucking masks. My aunt is a typical boomer normie. Since I wouldn't wear a mask she kept 6 feet away from me the entire time. She was telling me about this new movie with Tom Hanks in it and the entire time I was just thinking "Tom Hanks is a pedophile". Later she was talking about how she can't wait for my brother and I to get the vaccine, with all my will power I stopped myself from laughing.
Most women in my generation especially in the Seattle area are brain dead. A couple of months ago I was on a date with a woman who is a latina and she was saying how disappointed she was that so many latino's voted for Trump. I asked if she thought they were "racist" cause she claimed that she thinks Trump voters are racist. She says yes because they are white washed. I called the waiter over, paid my tab, told her I don't date racist pieces of shit like her and left.
Dating in general as a Trump voter in the Seattle area is hard. Every girl I have tried to date ends up being a NPC libtard. Then when they find out I am a Trump voter it's like they are disgusted with themselves for fucking a Trump voter. Yet we're the only ones they fuck anyways.
My coworkers are all brain dead too. I am in the beer industry which is really liberal for some reason. I work at a big brewery in the state so being outnumbered 20 to 1 I just don't talk about anything political and have to "act" normal. I listen to them talk shit about Trump all the time. I 100% believe that if I came out as a Trump voter they would find some BS reason to fire me.
I used to be a huge football fan. Haven't watched a game this year. If it weren't for the fact my coworkers talk about it I wouldn't even know that the Chiefs and Buccaneers were in the Super Bowl.
My friend group has shrunk to only the 3 friends that voted for Trump. Our high school friend group has been torn apart over the political scene. I also don't talk to half of my family anymore cause I can't deal with their woke bullshit.
I don't go on social media at all really anymore. I am tired of the media gaslighting and watching the sheep's stupid social media posts.
My tolerance for normies and NPC's is at a zero. I actually hate them more then the Cabal. Without their stupidity, narcissism and false sense of moral superiority the world wouldn't have to deal with the Cabal. I wish the Q team would just rip the band aid off. I don't care if normies and NPC's die from shock from the truth. They enabled this shit so fuck them. I understand everything is at stake here but god damn this burden is hard.
My drinking and pot smoking has gone up a lot with these fucking covid lockdowns and waiting for the plan to unfold. I have held the line for so long and am the most hardcore Trump supporter I know. Speaking of Covid lockdowns Jay Inslee let only the 3 largest counties in the state (all blue) open up. Purely political. He hates Red Eastern Washington and I doubt he'll let them open up anytime soon. I haven't gone to the gym or jiu jitsu/boxing in a year now and I miss it so much.
I am just fed up frens. Just fed up. I question my sanity often. Like I was talking to my brother on the phone and was asking him how the fuck do we see this for what it is and the normies/NPC's are complete sheep. How do we on this site see the truth and others can't? To me it seems to fucking obvious once you put some of the pieces together.
Thanks for reading this post. I needed to rant a bit sorry if I came off like a whiny bitch.
I'll continue to hold the line cause until we win I am not comfortable.
From the read of it I think I've got about 20 years on you, but I've felt exactly this way for a long time -- and very, very acutely since March. Have been frustrated by most of the things you mention. Am increasingly alienated from family members who seem to have no bullshit-ingestion limit, and from the vast majority of people in my very, very liberal industry.
Last summer was my lowest point of all. The Floyd riots, the kicking in of just HOW big a lie the China Virus was, and the Cancel blitzkrieg did really bad stuff to me. I'd wake up every day to some new horror, something else that had been ruined or destroyed, another piece of the country I loved had been sliced off by screaming, triumphant bastards, the whole world was descending into hell. A switch had flipped somewhere, and the Devil had come to Earth to collect. I isolated, cut myself off from everyone, started living in my office. Didn't want to go home. Couldn't stand to get in my car and go out and look at the nightmare.
There wasn't a word to describe what I was feeling. Not "anger", not "depression", not "rage", not "grief". It was all of those things, and none of them. Having to start all over again after the '08 crash never felt like this. Being betrayed by friends and colleagues never felt like this. Burying a parent never felt like this. What this felt like was "The End", of everything.
Somehow, I picked myself up and moved forward. And weirdly, after November 3rd and all the hell we've been put through since, I didn't go back to that terrible place again. Instead I just got MAD, and more energized, and more determined than ever never to put on a mask, obey a single restriction, or accept a single lie that the miserable fucking faggots doing this to us tried to push. No matter what.
The Evil creeping over this land, and all the cowardly and submissive people who enable it, are creating a very lonely world for people like us. In the end, all you can do is be true to yourself and what you believe. And yeah, the price of doing that is getting higher all the time. But the price of losing your soul is higher than anything. As long as they can't take away your will, can't break you down into accepting things you know are false, you are a mortal threat to them. That's why they hate us so much -- they're afraid of what we might do to them. And they should be.
Hang in there.
"Anguished lamentation?"