I have been awake for 10 years now but it feels like my mental health from it is at it's worst right now. Like the title says I am having a hard time interacting with a lot of people in my day to day life especially being in a deep blue state (WA). Between the covid crap and knowing the truth about pedophilia I live in a completely different reality and world then the average person.
I don't wear my mask at big box stores most of the time. I do with my mom because she doesn't want to be harassed so I respect that. If it's just my Dad and I we go maskless together.
My aunt came to visit me with her new puppy the other day and was wearing two fucking masks. My aunt is a typical boomer normie. Since I wouldn't wear a mask she kept 6 feet away from me the entire time. She was telling me about this new movie with Tom Hanks in it and the entire time I was just thinking "Tom Hanks is a pedophile". Later she was talking about how she can't wait for my brother and I to get the vaccine, with all my will power I stopped myself from laughing.
Most women in my generation especially in the Seattle area are brain dead. A couple of months ago I was on a date with a woman who is a latina and she was saying how disappointed she was that so many latino's voted for Trump. I asked if she thought they were "racist" cause she claimed that she thinks Trump voters are racist. She says yes because they are white washed. I called the waiter over, paid my tab, told her I don't date racist pieces of shit like her and left.
Dating in general as a Trump voter in the Seattle area is hard. Every girl I have tried to date ends up being a NPC libtard. Then when they find out I am a Trump voter it's like they are disgusted with themselves for fucking a Trump voter. Yet we're the only ones they fuck anyways.
My coworkers are all brain dead too. I am in the beer industry which is really liberal for some reason. I work at a big brewery in the state so being outnumbered 20 to 1 I just don't talk about anything political and have to "act" normal. I listen to them talk shit about Trump all the time. I 100% believe that if I came out as a Trump voter they would find some BS reason to fire me.
I used to be a huge football fan. Haven't watched a game this year. If it weren't for the fact my coworkers talk about it I wouldn't even know that the Chiefs and Buccaneers were in the Super Bowl.
My friend group has shrunk to only the 3 friends that voted for Trump. Our high school friend group has been torn apart over the political scene. I also don't talk to half of my family anymore cause I can't deal with their woke bullshit.
I don't go on social media at all really anymore. I am tired of the media gaslighting and watching the sheep's stupid social media posts.
My tolerance for normies and NPC's is at a zero. I actually hate them more then the Cabal. Without their stupidity, narcissism and false sense of moral superiority the world wouldn't have to deal with the Cabal. I wish the Q team would just rip the band aid off. I don't care if normies and NPC's die from shock from the truth. They enabled this shit so fuck them. I understand everything is at stake here but god damn this burden is hard.
My drinking and pot smoking has gone up a lot with these fucking covid lockdowns and waiting for the plan to unfold. I have held the line for so long and am the most hardcore Trump supporter I know. Speaking of Covid lockdowns Jay Inslee let only the 3 largest counties in the state (all blue) open up. Purely political. He hates Red Eastern Washington and I doubt he'll let them open up anytime soon. I haven't gone to the gym or jiu jitsu/boxing in a year now and I miss it so much.
I am just fed up frens. Just fed up. I question my sanity often. Like I was talking to my brother on the phone and was asking him how the fuck do we see this for what it is and the normies/NPC's are complete sheep. How do we on this site see the truth and others can't? To me it seems to fucking obvious once you put some of the pieces together.
Thanks for reading this post. I needed to rant a bit sorry if I came off like a whiny bitch.
I'll continue to hold the line cause until we win I am not comfortable.
maybe you aren't a Christian so bare with me:
Christ knew what was coming. There's even people who say he had judas do what he did. Christ told his apostles it had to happen, not to protect him, not to help him escape, even healed a Roman soldier that came to get him after Peter cut his ear off. He knew he was going to be tortured and crucified. He knew that God would raise him up. He knew that he would be used to teach billions of humans about forgiveness as salvation to prevent eternal damnation, whatever that means.
Its 2021. Your a five year old boy. You are bound and gagged, and have been raped repeatedly, violently, and brought before an alter of baal. Its hot. They put you in it. You scream as 475 degree steal is searing your flesh. Then they take you out. Did they have a change of heart? Nope. You are getting raped again, and their eating you now.
Its 2021. You're a guy in Washington. You have a job. You have family. You have people who care about you. You probably have a car and a home. You probably have access to catharsis and self defense. You wondering how if there is a God, he could do paragraph 1, and allow paragraph 2.
What if in all that occurs, that freedom is the choice of influence, and how far you will go into that choice, with that freedom?
Beyond that, if there is no God at all, and we answer to men only, why is those who delight in wickedness are not met with those who equally enjoy destroying the wicked?
Why is it those who claim salvation, will not destroy those who would rape, cook, and eat children? Does it require hate? If so, I was commanded to love. Who then do I love, if I allow the most vulnerable to be harmed, by the most wicked?
Sir, I am what I preach, as I seek my answers from God in silence, doubting all my thoughts and feelings, I observe them to dismiss them. Then I remember what I already know, as the influence of evil is thoughts and emotions, yet the influence of good is as memory returned.
I have no advice to offer. You need silent prayer so you may listen. I know, because we all do, people who do turn to God and not man, thus you never see them with these sorts of problems. I am not accusing you of anything by the way. God bless you for reaching out. Its better to do that than to suffer alone, with your thoughts screaming louder than any human ever could. With love and respect, Araphel, Ein Sof