I've got to admit I haven't been a good person to be around lately. I am very tense and upset. I think my family sees it as being distracted and impatient. Inside I feel quite worried and sad. I have looked ahead knowing this leftist tyranny was coming for a decade, but seeing it happen is a little like seeing a horror movie you're watching jump out from the screen and takeover reality. My hope for Q and Trump isn't fully internalized, it's more like a theory or an abstract intellectual concept. If it happens my emotions will boil over into the greatest joy I think I'd feel in all of my life. I know that my only way forward is God. I must choose to be a better person despite the hardships. I know.