I just can't do it anymore. I go to bible study and we talk about the little evils that people struggle with every day. You would think, I would benefit from a women's bible study about "The Armor of God". But it very hard to care about the study and about all the little struggles we normies deal with when so much true evil is in the world. I also LOATH zoom. I want to do things in person and I just can't seem to get into a distance bible study.
I want to talk about satanists murdering babies. I want to talk about how Covid is a lie instead of pretending to be concerned about people catching a cold. And yes God forgive me I have lost my empathy for them. She asked me why I didn't continue and what I focusing my time on. And I told her about murdering babies and drinking their blood. I told her about Satanist in powerful positions.
She insisted that she had looked into that decades ago and knew all about it and that she could not deal with it so decided to do focus on the people around her and her life and to not deal with the stresses of these things. I get that. I understand that. And I can't do that right now. I just hung up on her. All she did was convince me I should not go and she was trying to do just the opposite.
The fact is that she is RIGHT! There is nothing we can do. It is all in Gods hands so I really should be going to that study and serving my neighbors. I just can't right now.
Stay in connection with the board of leaders in your congregation. Make it your immediate mission either to find the Spirit's new mentor for you or to continue to accept and submit to the current appointed women's teacher. Whoever is head of your household, if not yourself, should be involved too.
Because we are engaged in spiritual and hybrid warfare and we are learning how to use our defensive and offensive armor, spiritual formation and chain of command is essential. Infanticide and trafficking are horrendous challenges, but they are God's challenges and he has a totally sufficient plan for dealing with them at the right time. That plan may involve you in a big or small way. They are not your challenges as a rank-and-file soldier: your challenge is indeed to defeat the evils in your life and in the lives of those you care for, and in this way the horrendous evils will also be defeated as you stand your ground.
If you mourn for feeling a lack of connection to the big fight, realize your work on the homefront is essential to the big fight, just as your conviction to discuss it with the leader is. First release the struggle over whether you're not doing enough given the depravity around you, and realize you are approved by God for doing what he has given you to do. You will be called to additional work when God knows you're ready, not when you think you are. Exult in the work he has already given, intercede for the work still to do, and feel free to constantly seek opportunities from the Lord and from circumstances to do more. There are times to enlarge your tent, lengthen your cords, and strengthen your stakes. Dallas, Houston, or central?
Thanks. Central