You can do as you choose...Free will is yours. Those of us who share faith, enlightenment, patience and understanding are willing to wait because we know things are happening that we are not privy to. It doesn't all have to be spelled out. We know enough. Perhaps you should step away and regroup....I understand this is stressful and many are not going to able to accept that which they don't understand...I wish you peace and Blessings..