I am sorry you can not have children, and yes the one in the middle is the one that shocked me the most! That is a baby if born in a hospital doctors would do all they can to help it survive. I think I am shocked because I always expected the ones who are aborted to be small and tiny no way they could survive outside the womb, much like a miscarriage (I am extremely against abortion I find it abhorrent) so it just shocks me how people say oh this is just a clump of cells, no most of them are fully recognizable babies! How can a mother do this to her own child? I am sorry, I share in your heartbreak on this.