It's sickening, really. I'm sure I'm not one of the only ones of Gen Z who browses these boards, among others, but it's difficult not to start dooming. Our schools are putting up plexiglass between desks, our teachers parrot the state-approved propaganda, most things are closed here or require us to "socially distance," so mostly everyone spends their time force feeding whatever self-destructive narratives are being pushed through pop culture and social media.
If that's not enough, the few people who do understand bullshit is going on don't think much of it because there's so much apathy in Gen Z and people don't really understand that we're living in a time where mass catastrophe is completely possible. They can't fathom it, because of how good we really have it, but everyone has been forced into lockstep with this sort of savior complex, following the whole "being oppressed, anti-white" dogma because they think that it puts them on some sort of moral pedastal. They teach things in the classroom masked as apolitical then tell us we need to identify with it so we can "find out who we are" and fight for justice. Most just care about what rappers are getting out of jail, how many attention points they can fit into their basket, or are ripping their hair out and screaming at the sky because they can't figure out which fucking gender they are, or some bullshit like that. More boys are being demasculinated and are directionless and disenfranchised in terms of growing up to be men, more of the girls are running to OnlyFans as soon as they can and feel entitled to acting promiscuos, which is being encouraged ontinuously.
It feels like I'm in NPC Headquarters. The only thing that's been keeping me sane besides trying to educate myself with books or exercise. I don't really know how long that'll last.
Don't EVER let them break you. I wasted so many years feeling like there was something wrong with me because I could not make friends. I went on to great happiness, but I wasted a lot of time being brainwashed into thinking that if I did not make a gaggle of fake NPC friends I was defective. My whole school system was one big indoctrination factory pumping out the non-thinking. How does an awake person make friends with those who are asleep? You can't. You either join the cult or you try to wake others. Many don't want to wake. However, as you get older you will find them.
The system will beat you down. Your brainwashed classmates will beat you down, but don't give up. Only you can know you. You're awake and capable of true happiness. The NPCs will never have that. Their smiles are only plastered on. Happiness comes from real accomplishments not marching in the streets for some made up cause. Or posting a hashtag that does jack crap to change anything.
I'm awake, and doing my best to hold on, but sometimes it feels that as the days go on I get less and less tolerant of everything, and more importantly, everyone. I've never really been a bitter person, so I try to act like the best version of myself that I can be, but I'd be a liar if I said it wasn't testing my willpower to the maximum.